This is my new mantra. A few days ago, it was most assuredly, "I am not ready. Not yet please. Let's just wait a few days, mkay?" I think that holding a space for BF SS and her baby, along with the crappy news on Wednesday and the discussions with my OB and midwife, really sent me for a depleted-energy loop. I went to see my very wise life coach yesterday, and today I'm feeling much more settled. So, I am getting ready. My "To Do" list isn't that long, and truthfully, there's not that much on there that feels imperative.
Husband had a garage sale this weekend. I am in awe that he actually motivated to do it - both days. But, he did, and he did an awesome job, and we actually made some $$!! Also, we sold our dining room table and chairs and went out last night and bought another set from a guy that's moving to Manhattan next weekend. The new set is soooo pretty. Now there's something that I've wanted to do but didn't think would get done before baby! All we have to do is call for charity to come and pick up what we didn't sell. It will feel great to have all that stuff out of our garage, and I know Husband will enjoy having his parking spot back.
The next two days I'm having appointments with a pediatrician and an OB about the whole GBS positive issue. Wish me luck. We're mostly decided about what route to take, and I'm hoping for little resistance from my care providers.
What I'm most happy about tonight is, and I don't want to jinx myself by saying anything too soon....actually, on second thought. I won't say anything. It's too important. I'll write more later and let you know what that was about. Sorry. ZOINKS! I got you all ready for some juicy stuff and then yanked it out of your grasp at the last minute! It may not seem all that important to you, actually, when you find out what the hell I'm talking about. But, it is of utmost importance to me. Ut. Most.
I think I've turned a corner, and I'm excited (again) to be getting ready for the birth of my daughter. I can't wait to meet her!! I can't believe there will be a real, live baby at the end of this road! Wild stuff. Mind boggling. I suppose it won't be real until she's here. This little being with her own spirit and her own purpose, entrusting herself to our care and nurturing for her whole entire life. Yeah. No big deal. (!!!!!!)
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