But I choose to blog it out instead.
We are in our new house!!! And it's awesome! A dream come true, I tell you, even if it isn't technically 'our house.' It's ours for now, and that's just as it should be. The only down side - no dishwasher. In my previous life, this would have been a HUGE drawback, but in my current life, well...here's my view from my kitchen window:
Anyone who knows me well knows that this has been my dream for a very, very long time. To have my kitchen window look out onto my back yard, which is easily accessible by my daughter, and all the neighborhood kiddos. Yesterday, we picked up the swing set (ahem, awesome CL find! $300 swing set for EIGHTY-FIVE DOLLARS!!!), and my DH spent the afternoon on his day off putting it together. Today, we safely anchored it into the ground and tomorrow it will be ready for endless playing.
Other exciting developments in our 'hood - we can't walk a block without seeing kids who are all too happy to play with Zoe. Today, Zoe went outside to find our backyard neighbors' 3 year old niece visiting and eager to play, and 20 minutes later the 4 year old little girl next door came bounding over to join in the fun. Ahhh, my heart was so full, watching them all running around and having a great time together!! Sometimes it's so good, I can't believe that this life is mine.
Other times, I feel lonely. LONELY!!! My Sis injured herself last week on our move day (ugh, so sorry Sis!), so she's been out of commission and will be for some time, and my mother and I had our first argument in a loooooong time. It was bound to happen, as we live closer now and things have changed quite a bit for both of us. In any case, my lifelines here are now somewhat unavailable and I'm finding myself feeling not grounded enough yet to branch out into my new life here in a town 30 minutes away from my family.
I miss my friends and support system in San Francisco, even though I barely got to visit with any of them while I lived there and the support was mostly through conversations at work, or on the phone while I was driving from one place to another. Still, those people were a part of my life in the day-to-day. Now? I'm mostly a SAHM, with some work coming next month out of the house but in an intimate family setting, and other work coming in that will be done from home. Damn, it's a good thing I like my house!
But waa waa waa, call me a freakin' WAAAAAAmbulance. I LOVE my home, my new neighborhood is beautiful, and aside from an hour-long freak-out tantrum a few nights ago, Zoe is adjusting quite well. She said to me the other day in the kitchen while I was putting her hair up, "Mommy? I like it here." It's no wonder, as we've set her up with a fleet of riding toys outside, a whole play room of her own in addition to her bedroom, most of her toys unpacked and a swing set in the back yard. Soon to come are two additional tree swings in the front yard, all just in time for my BFF's visit with her daughter of the same age as Zoe. It's going to be awesome. I can't wait to share my new house with them both.
In the meantime, I must unpack! I've found a sitter who can help a couple of mornings a week, which is perfect, and I need to get on a roll. Living in boxes corrodes my brain space. Seriously, I can't function with all this around me, it's paralyzing! So, off I go to tackle the 20-odd boxes of kitchen stuff. Wish me luck! Perhaps my little Cinderella could grant me some of hers...
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