We are all suffering from cabin fever. In a very real way. The novelty has worn off, and it's a weird thing to not have anything that needs done except to feed and entertain ourselves. It's kind of like camping, which is fun, right? But in our case, we just don't know when it's going to end, and I think that little piece of the puzzle makes all the difference. We miss our lives. But then, I'm also aware that the grass is always greener.
Zoe woke up sick this morning with a low grade fever, so she was 'grounded' all day long, which is hard on everyone. I woke up wanting today to be different than yesterday, so spent the morning alone in our bedroom listening to my hypnobirthing tracks and meditating, then showering, before appearing to the rest of the crew. I ate my lovingly-prepared-by-my-hubby breakfast of eggs and toast, then went and sat on the front porch in the sun, listening to Dvorak 8, my most favorite piece of classical music ever. The time alone seems to have worked, because today has been a much better day. My cohorts, however, may not have fared so well.
Sherry and I went for a very long walk, and the look on Scotty's face when we got back said it all. He needed to get OUT. So, off he went to run a few errands on his own. Sherry, too, needed more activity added into the day, so she went for her second walk of the day in the sunshine. I stayed here and spent some QT with the kiddo, searching for and then painting rocks, and watching a little Dora and snuggling on the couch. Tonight was leftover night from our foray out to a very well-reviewed restaurant in Lawrenceberg last night. (Good food and service. Horrible vibe from the locals and the hosts at the front of the place were amazingly sub-par.)
Scotty got us some games from Walmart, which was a welcomed break in routine from our usual typing away on our computers, reading, or streaming video on our computers in the evenings. Zoe LOVES her new game that daddy picked out, The Cat in the Hat, I can Do That Game. It's really super. And we had a great time playing Life after she went to bed.
Now, I'm heading off in that direction, too. But here are the things that I tried to shift into today...
- If there is anyplace on earth that I will feel comfortable and free to go into labor just when I am meant to, it is here.
- My baby and my body know exactly what they are doing, and I can trust that this baby will come just at the right time.
- This is my last pregnancy. Staying present and in gratitude for these last moments with a baby inside my belly is really the way to go.
- My body will not make a baby that is too big for me to birth.
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