We have arrived at the point in this story where I have crossed over. I am now enjoying each day that I have left of not having a newborn.
I have no responsibilities really except to make sure Zoe is healthy and happy and feed myself. I can nap when I feel like it. Go for a walk with my husband or my best friend or my daughter if and when I feel like it. Read when I feel like it. Sit on the porch in the rain and talk to my sister, and other fun stuff.
It's also nice to feel the familiarity of The Farm. We have our regular walking routes, I know a few people, Zoe knows a lot of people (my buzzing socialite), and we have our routines now. Tonight, we were invited to a Community Dinner. These happen a few times a month, and are just a time for the people on The Farm to get together, eat good food, and let the kids play. Tonight's was a 'benefit' for the Farm School, where Zoe's been going to preschool. Much to all our delight - but especially to Zoe's - the kids from school performed two plays: Click Clack Moo, and another one that I can't remember the name of. It was really sweet. We sat with Pamela and her family, and caught up with several other people that we've met along the way in the last three weeks. It was great to feel a part of the community.
In other news, it appears that the baby has dropped and changed position to help mama have as easy a time in childbirth as possible in that regard. Instead of being ROT (back against the right side of my belly, feet poking me in my left side), the baby now seems to be plain OA (back against my belly, limbs kicking me in my internal organs - feels SUPER!). As a result, I am carrying directly out front, which looks kinda funny from all angles, including mine. And no slouching for me. There's no room.
I have two lovely frinds doing energy work on me and the baby from afar, one of whom's first session immediately precipitated the recent change in positioning.
I'm enjoying my time on The Farm, with my BFF, and my husband and daughter. We have all been forced to dig deep and do different sorts of personal growth work here, which will serve us well when we head back to our real lives. Having another day or two of this ease would be ok with me. At the same time, I'm also more than ready to meet this child and start the next chapter of our life.
We'll see what the night brings...
Shelby, I've so enjoyed reading and sharing in this adventure with you. Thank you for being an open book. So happy to see you've reached a place of contentment at The Farm. That seems very auspicious indeed. :)
I wish you a wondrous, amazing, and easy birth.
Big, big hugs,
Caryn P.S. I learned, just hours ago, that we are expecting #2 as well! Zoinks!
Posted by: Caryn Hoadley | January 28, 2012 at 02:35 PM
YAY Caryn!! How exciting for you! Oooh, I'm so happy. :) Thanks for sharing.
Posted by: Shelby | January 29, 2012 at 07:50 AM